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To My Love Site...

What is love?  Seriously... I have been thinking for a long time.  Ever since I know what is  LOVE... I asked my seniors and my father, "What on earth is this word love doing?  It can make people happy and smiling.  But also, it
can cause suicides, unhappiness, jealousy and so on."  Once I heard my friend told me, "God gave us 'love' to us human to enjoy and share it with each other.  But earthlings took advantage of it by playing and destroying it.

Oh well, to me... what I have now is totally happiness.  I gained respects, happiness, all day long... my smiling face... in the joy of love.  I truly understand it except without the meanings to explain it out.  Funny huh? 
But that's me!  Hahahahahahaha...

I am now 20 years old and going to be 21.  I have never been so fulfilled. 
I have loved and hated my past lovers.  All I got were just sorrows, upset, hatred and so on.  Being with them, I learn nothing from them... I didn't understand what love really means to me.  For now, I finally found someone which is worth it.  He didn't taught me how to love him nor did he coach me how to be a good girlfriend.  From him, we both argue a lot.  Our arguments contain about our future, our mistakes, and so on.  We shared our feelings
everyday.  Without failing once, we have been complaining each other's attitude or our character.  Oh... do you think that complaining and arguing aren't a good start?  Well, let me explain it... people fight with each other
and misunderstood each other is bcoz of lack of communicating.  They don't talk out, they keep it to themselves thinking that ppl will know it later on.  Well, me and my boyfriend doesn't agree with that.  Whenever we aren't happy about it, we talk to each other.  The way we talked to each other, comforting
each other after arguments... the more we felt that we can't live without each other and we do want to keep this relationship for long term. 

Some of my friends had been going steady with their bf for more than 5 years.  I have been asking them... are you happy with your life?  Any uncomfortable feelings?  They told me that they really don't know whether
they still love their bf or not.  Some married couples really think they love
each other but on the 2nd thought... do they really?  They would never think twice for it.  Once they married or go steady means that they were meant for each other.  Sometimes they might get blank when people ask, "You and
your husband really look like a happy couple."  I know one of my friend really confess to me about it.  I have another friend which married for the sake of just to get married.  And did she ever think it is a foolish decision?  Marriage aren't a game to me.  I might look kind blur sometimes but I am a great thinker... I think a lot.  All kinds of things, no matter is it good or bad.  I have
to take precaution first.  That's what I have learnt when I first step out of my own house to be independent.  Love... is a dangerous game to play.  But when you are really into it, you'll have the sweetest plum you've ever tasted.  Love, a fascinating word... to explain in all kinds of languages.  Everyone have their own dictionary form for LOVE... but not for me.  It's like friendship... it is so pure... yet so complicating. 

I hereby, wish all the lovebirds,"CHERISH AND TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW." And as for the following people, I LOVE YOU ALL ALWAYS!!!  Especially to you, Nick.  This page is inspired by you... I dedicate the whole love section to you.

Nick Kuan, Ramond Chew, Catherine Wong, Everlyn Kaw, Pamela Chen, Shokie, Brian Chow, Mark Ong, Choon Hou, Toby Edmonson, Wesley, Neal Scully, Irene Chia, Chee Leng, Hui Ling, Liew Poh Li, Douglas,... and for the rest of you... oh well... I will put your name in as long as I find out that I have been loving you... HAHAHAHAHA!!!

A poem that I love personally, would like to dedicate to Nick:
Love is being able to walk arm in arm...
even when you don't see eye to eye.
Love is when you take away
the feeling, the passion, the romance
and you find out you still care for that person.
Never say goodbye when you still want to try.
Never give up when you still feel you can take it.
Never say you no longer love a person when you can't let go.
If you love someone, tell them...
for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.

E-leen@Yumeko 2000