|What is love? Seriously... I have been
thinking for a long time. Ever since I know what is LOVE...
I asked my seniors and my father, "What on earth is this word love doing?
It can make people happy and smiling. But also, it
can cause suicides, unhappiness, jealousy and
so on." Once I heard my friend told me, "God gave us 'love' to us
human to enjoy and share it with each other. But earthlings took
advantage of it by playing and destroying it.
Oh well, to me... what I have now is totally happiness.
I gained respects, happiness, all day long... my smiling face... in the
joy of love. I truly understand it except without the meanings to
explain it out. Funny huh?
But that's me! Hahahahahahaha...
I am now 20 years old and going to be 21.
I have never been so fulfilled.
I have loved and hated my past lovers.
All I got were just sorrows, upset, hatred and so on. Being with
them, I learn nothing from them... I didn't understand what love really
means to me. For now, I finally found someone which is worth it.
He didn't taught me how to love him nor did he coach me how to be a good
girlfriend. From him, we both argue a lot. Our arguments contain
about our future, our mistakes, and so on. We shared our feelings
everyday. Without failing once, we have
been complaining each other's attitude or our character. Oh... do
you think that complaining and arguing aren't a good start? Well,
let me explain it... people fight with each other
and misunderstood each other is bcoz of lack
of communicating. They don't talk out, they keep it to themselves
thinking that ppl will know it later on. Well, me and my boyfriend
doesn't agree with that. Whenever we aren't happy about it, we talk
to each other. The way we talked to each other, comforting
each other after arguments... the more we felt
that we can't live without each other and we do want to keep this relationship
for long term.
Some of my friends had been going steady with
their bf for more than 5 years. I have been asking them... are you
happy with your life? Any uncomfortable feelings? They told
me that they really don't know whether
they still love their bf or not. Some married
couples really think they love
each other but on the 2nd thought... do they
really? They would never think twice for it. Once they married
or go steady means that they were meant for each other. Sometimes
they might get blank when people ask, "You and
your husband really look like a happy couple."
I know one of my friend really confess to me about it. I have another
friend which married for the sake of just to get married. And did
she ever think it is a foolish decision? Marriage aren't a game to
me. I might look kind blur sometimes but I am a great thinker...
I think a lot. All kinds of things, no matter is it good or bad.
to take precaution first. That's what I
have learnt when I first step out of my own house to be independent.
Love... is a dangerous game to play. But when you are really into
it, you'll have the sweetest plum you've ever tasted. Love, a fascinating
word... to explain in all kinds of languages. Everyone have their
own dictionary form for LOVE... but not for me. It's like friendship...
it is so pure... yet so complicating.
I hereby, wish all the lovebirds,"CHERISH AND
TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW." And as for the following people, I LOVE YOU
ALL ALWAYS!!! Especially to you, Nick. This page is inspired
by you... I dedicate the whole love section to you.
Nick Kuan, Ramond Chew, Catherine Wong, Everlyn
Kaw, Pamela Chen, Shokie, Brian Chow, Mark Ong, Choon Hou, Toby Edmonson,
Wesley, Neal Scully, Irene Chia, Chee Leng, Hui Ling, Liew Poh Li, Douglas,...
and for the rest of you... oh well... I will put your name in as long as
I find out that I have been loving you... HAHAHAHAHA!!!
A poem that I love personally, would like to
dedicate to Nick:
is being able to walk arm in arm...
when you don't see eye to eye.
is when you take away
feeling, the passion, the romance
you find out you still care for that person.
say goodbye when you still want to try.
give up when you still feel you can take it.
say you no longer love a person when you can't let go.
you love someone, tell them...
hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.